today i was feeling a little bad about some post-marital weight gain...i was online trying to figure out what size jeans i needed to buy since none of my old ones really fit comfortably anymore. (also embarrassing.) i placed my order and tried not to freak out.
then, i started to go through our vacation photos. and cropped my midsection out of every single one of them. (even more embarrassing.)
crisis mode engaged.
i started some typical self-deprication...i need to lose weight, i need to eat better, i need to exercise more, i need to work harder at my artwork, i need to read my scriptures and pray more regularly, i don't attend the temple often enough, i have housework i should've gotten done, etc., etc., etc.
you probably know how that goes.
so after a few tears and a short pity party, i took action. i made some helpful little signs to remind me eat right, exercise, work hard, study and pray and then taped them up around the house. then i made a spreadsheet of my daily, weekly, and monthly goals. i included everything from dusting once a week to preparing FHE to taking my vitamin everyday. that way i can check off all of my accomplishments and see what great things i am doing.
then, most importantly, i cracked open my (slightly neglected) Book of Mormon and picked up where I had left off--3 Nephi 13. I don't know why I was surprised when these words jumped off the page...
25 And now it came to pass that when Jesus had spoken these words he looked upon the twelve whom he had chosen, and said unto them: Remember the words which I have spoken. For behold, ye are they whom I have chosen to minister unto this people. Therefore I say unto you, take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
26 Behold the fowls of the air, for they sow not, neither do they reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin;
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, even so will he clothe you, if ye are not of little faith.
31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.
i am a huge baby, so i burst into tears. here i was freaking out about eating veggies, drinking more water, and the size of my jeans...when i really need to be focusing on the Lord.
isn't it wonderful how the Lord can point you back in the right direction, just when you really need it?
sigh. crisis averted.